Post by ✯The New Dawn✯ on Mar 13, 2011 21:21:10 GMT 10
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[/size]I was trying to calm down, trying to keep a clear mind and sort things out with my emotions, the pack and Bella. I knew how she felt for Edward and I could understand that, because I felt the same way about her. It hurt me that she didn’t feel that way about me. Either way I had to work things out for myself. I thought the cliffs would be a good place to do just that, as they were a peaceful place for me at times. I just wanted to be alone and have my thoughts to myself for once.[/i]
My side was still half shattered and painful at times. I hadn’t tried phasing yet, but Carlisle had said that it was safe to do so. I didn’t really believe him because of the pain I still had, but I guessed he knew what he was doing. At least I hoped he did. I was pretty sure that I had been the first werewolf he had ever treated.
The wind was strong when I detected a new presence. I looked up to see Leah walking over to my side. I knew I would have no peace here now. She knew that I just wanted to be alone, but she was only going to push her presence on to me anyway.
“Shut up!” I growled as she went on with telling me to get over Bella. If I was capable of doing that, I would have already. I wasn’t the type to hang on one thing that wasn’t ever going to happen, but Bella, she meant the world to me. I couldn’t and wouldn’t live without her. As it was, my heart felt like it was been torn into a billion pieces with every second that passed without her at my side.
“Face it Jacob. He’ll only kill her anyway,” she said with dark humour. “Then you won’t have a problem, and then finally I can stop gawking over her like I am the one in love with her, thanks to seeing her through your eyes!”
I had to fight back the burning sensation coming over me then. Her words hurt more than anything I had ever felt before. The images came to mind, and had to push it all back before I lost it. I could feel the tremors going through my body as my hands turned into tight fists. My body soon hurt with the tenseness I had put it in to keep control. My eyes reopened and she was smiling. I growled again, really wanting something to hurt her as much as she had hurt me.
“You think it is bad see how I care for someone through my eyes, try seeing through your eyes about how you feel about Sam! It’s bad enough for Emily that you’re still chasing him, she doesn’t need us guys too!” I watched as the pain shot through her and she started to shake. Even as annoyed as I was, felt sorry for what I had said. I knew how hard it was and I had only made it worse.
She ran off towards the forest in a total blur before disappearing altogether. My hands clenched again as the pain of her words repeated in my head. It was cutting deeper than ever before. It felt like my heart was cut in a million ways. Like my world was crashing down around me. I felt like I was losing everything I ever cared about. But, it wasn’t the idea of her not been at my side that hurt me the most now. I could live with the idea she hadn’t picked me. It was the fact that he could kill her. It cut me up the most.
The rage coursed through me again. I wanted to phase and let my inner animal take control of the pain. It could take it better than I ever could. It wasn’t the same pain as a human’s. An animal was stronger than any human could ever be. I realized that better than anyone, the only problem was Leah was now running and I didn’t want to hear her thoughts, nor did I want to share mine with her.
I cussed under my breath and hit the ground hard with my hand, running home as fast as I could in my human form. When I got home, I saw a note on the table. I opened it and felt my body tense at the hand writing. Old style and fancy, it was obvious who it was from.
Jacob,
I’m breaking the rules by sending you this. She was afraid of hurting you, and she didn’t want to make you feel obligated in anyway. But I know that, if things had gone the other way, I would have wanted the choice. I promise I will take care of her, Jacob. Thank you – for her – for everything.
Edward
I threw the note to the floor behind me, struggling out of my shirt as I ran outside of the house shacking violently. The rest of my clothes trailed behind me as I head towards the forest. The shift was all too easy now. It was automatic. It came before I asked it to.
Sorry Jake, Embry whispered into my head.
Slow down, Quil complained.
Just leave me alone! I snarled, pushed harder against the ground as I ran faster, trying to get away. I felt both of my friend’s worry enter my head. I hated seeing myself through their eyes. It was one of the things I hated most.
Let him go, Sam suddenly ordered and I felt them both stop and phase back.
Thank you.
Come home when you can. And with that, Sam disappeared too. I was finally alone. I was able to hear everything around me.
The ocean’s whisper as it hit the cliffs. A deer gazing not far off and the soft coo of the wind passing me as I put more distance between me and La Push.I wasn’t coming back, not tomorrow, not next week, not ever. They would do better without me in their lives anyway, especially her. I was only hurting her more and more with been around, now she didn’t have to worry anymore. We were both free now, to live our own lives without interference from one and other.
* * *
After hearing of Jacob running off, Bella didn’t feel the same way anymore. She felt like she had lost everything that meant anything to her. She felt like her heart had been frozen in time, like her whole world had disappeared into darkness. There was no sun in her life anymore.
Jacob had taken it with him when he left. She couldn’t live without Jacob, but she still loved Edward. She called off the wedding before they told anyone outside of the Cullen family, so she could think clearly towards what she really wanted. Jacob had been right. She had been rushing into it, and because she knew that there as a huge possibility that she would change her mind.
Edward understood, but was hurt. Though it was what he wanted for her, for her to live a real, full and happy human life, and he knew that was what Jacob would give her, if he came back.
Bella went back to Jacksonville for a week and stayed with her mother. She wanted to be alone in a warm place that did have a sun, but it was still basically Forks to her. She was cold, lifeless and lightless. She missed the only sun that lit her life and made her live, and at that point, she realized, she couldn’t be without him. He had been the only one who had been there for her the whole time. He could have stepped away at any moment, but he stayed, protecting her, until he couldn’t stand it anymore. And now she had to choose.
* * *
[/size]It has been two years since Jacob had ran off, and with Charlie covering Forks, La Push and Seattle with missing posters, you would think he would have been sighted by now. But no one had seen that boy, only the russet wolf and the boy in the black jacket.
Since Jacob had left, slowly both the pack and the Cullens’ have parted and taken their own path in life. Only Carlisle, Esme, Bella and Charlie remain in Forks, with the others checking in every few weeks to months. The pack has also chosen their own paths as well.
Sam still protects the lands of both La Push and Forks, along with Embry and Paul by his side. The others of the pack still live in La Push, though they don’t bother to live the wolf life anymore.
There is a new danger coming for the Cullens’, Wolf Pack and any vampire or werewolf over the world, and it is lurking just on the horizon. They all will need to be there for one and other, and work together in order to survive it. It will be a trip back to the past for all of them.
And what about the Volturi? Will they come and see Bella still human, or will she choose Edward and have him change her before its too late? And what will come of Jacob? Will he come back home or find a new life and love?[/blockquote][/size]