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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 18, 2011 2:54:45 GMT 10
Leaning up against the bark of a pine tree, he crossed his arms over his chest while still still staring down at the dirt underneath his boot. Hearing her question to him, his glare upon the land turned into staring at it with blind eyes while biting his lower lip while thinking about his answer. He already knew what he would say, but he needed the right words to answer her in.
He looked up to her after a moment, holding her gaze. "I wouldn't have. But, its not because I wouldn't want to Bella. Its because, it would have been too painful for me.
[/color]" Getting Edward's note had been hard enough for him to read and read who she belonged to. He couldn't see it too. He sighed deeply, looking away from her again and kicked his boot against the bark of the tree while still thinking deeply still. He bit his lip harder with her question been raised. He looked and leant away from her. Speaking almost silently. " Your my imprint Bella.[/color]"
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Post by Bella Swan on May 18, 2011 3:23:05 GMT 10
Bella wasn't expecting what just been said. She just opened her mouth, clamped it shut and then opened it again. No words were coming out though! He had imprinted on her!! She stared at Jake. Holy cow! She lifted her hand and pointed a finger at Jacob.
No Jake! You can't! But.. but.. You.. No! She had heard stories of imprinting and how hard it was ultimately for both if it weren't the same. It all hit her like a ton of brinks. She felt herself growing pale. She had to sit down. She glanced around and moved abruptly to a fallen tree and lowered down to sit.
She was shaking harder than she had in her life. It made sense now. All of it. Why she didn't go through with her wedding. Why she had felt so heartbroken in a different sense than she did with Edward. Jake had long ago imprinted on her. Her hands lifted and her her head sunk down into them. She couldn't think again. What was she going to do? Did it matter even? Edward wasn't back..he wasn't going to come back it seemed...
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 18, 2011 3:36:43 GMT 10
He turned back toward her after a minute of her been silent. Seeing her, he saw why she hadn't said anything. She was speechless at first. He shook his head, hearing her words. He kicked his boot against the tree awkwardly again. "I can't control it Bella
[/color]" he murmured huskily. " Its been this way, since I turned.[/color]" His eye brows rose as he spoke and playing with his lower lip, biting it and letting it go. He looked to her after a moment of her staying silent. He wished he knew what she was thinking. She looked paler than he had ever saw her. She sat down on the log behind her, her head in her hands while shaking. He sighed, walking over and sitting beside her. " Bella, tell me what your thinking. Your scaring me,[/color]" he whispered, taking her hand into his own, squeezing it slightly.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 18, 2011 3:56:16 GMT 10
She thought back to when he turned. Yes, it had been then. She knew it but just didn't accept it. She lifted her head and looked to Jake. When he sat behind her, she leaned even more against him.. She also knew he couldn't control such things. She had heard more than one story about it on the reservation. She then shifted some and leaned against his side some and sighed.
I know you can't stop it and control it. I see it now when it happened, too. I, Jake, I don't know what to do or say though. I'm scared. If Edward to ever come back... you know, if I seen him... I.. I'd be in his arms. It was what happened when you deeply loved two men such as she did. She just couldn't figure out what to do about it. It was all too mind-blowing and new. Stunning the hell out of her, more like it.
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 18, 2011 4:26:53 GMT 10
His arms automatically wrapped tightly around her as she leaned into his side. His hands covered hers, keeping them warm and comforting her the best he could. He smiled slightly, feeling like this was where she belonged, in his arms. It just felt so right to him. He wondered if she could also feel it. He knew the more she accepted the imprint, the more of his own emotions she would feel. The more they would fall for each other.
He could hear her heart beating quickly and feel her shaking within his arms. His thumb brushed over the back of her hands."I know, understand. . . I'm scared too Bella,
[/color]" he said huskily and almost silently. He didn't know what else to say to her. He just felt confused by it all. He didn't know what this would lead to now. He was scared of what would happen. . . what her choice would be. " I didn't tell you, because, I didn't want you to feel like you're obligated to be with me, just because of it. . . [/color]" he sighed, his embrace around her slightly got tighter. " I love you Bella.I always will . . . but . . .[/color]" he trailed off in his tone of a whisper, knowing that she wouldn't want to hear those words. It would only sound like he was pressuring her to be with him anyway.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 18, 2011 23:31:24 GMT 10
Bella gave herself a nod. She was trying to sort this all out in her mind. It was alright for her to accept what Jake was saying, right? It wasn't as if she was going to see Edward again. For in her mind, had he really wanted her, he would be home. Only if she knew what days later would hold. She let her eyes close as he held her against his heated body. A person could get lost in such warmth as his. She absolutely loved it, how warm he was!
His words did comfort her though. In more ways than he knew of. He seemed to understand her fear. Or at least, he said he had. That in itself got a sigh of relief from her. She tuned in on the rest of what she was saying. He loved her. Of course she loved him as well! Jake, I don't feel obligated to be with you at all. It isn't that. It's.. I guess it don't really matter either way. It's not like Edward wants me, he would be here with me if he did. He is off doing god knows what. He left me. Again her head shook. As if in self reassurance.
Then she heard the but. But what? What was that for? She tipped her head up and back to look at him in question. But what, Jake?
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 18, 2011 23:46:55 GMT 10
He felt her slightly relaxed in his arms. He smiled slightly with the feeling of it. He listened to her words closely. His full attention was upon her and her only. His left hand brushed down the side of her face while listening to her. He didn't know what to say that would make her feel any better toward what Edward had done. He didn't know anything that was outside of the time he had spent with Edward while in New York. It was only a short amount of time, and left him non the wiser about what Edward's life was now. He didn't speak of what he had done in New York to Jacob, he was only there and that was about it.
He sighed, leaning back against the log but kept his arms around her and placed his left hand back over her hands. It helped to hear her words of not feeling obligated to be with him. His grip around her slightly loosen when she questioned him on what he had trailed off on. He stayed silently for a moment. Not sure what to say and how to say it in the right words without hurting her.
He looked down to her, holding her gaze while speaking. "I don't know what to say Bella. You just told me all I needed to know. . . That he's not around. But, if he does come back and you stay with him, I can't be around,
[/color]" he whispered softly. He didn't know what else he could say. He didn't want her to think that he was abandoning her too. But his words were the truth of what he felt. It would be too painful for him to see him with her, knowing that it should be himself with Bella, holding her, kissing her and protecting her with his very life.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 19, 2011 0:02:16 GMT 10
Bella rose up to her feet as soon as his grip had loosened. No. She wasn't having this. It wasn't going to happen like this again to her. Jake wasn't going to go anywhere. She'd, she'd...somehow stop it. She shook a bit and tears started to slip free again. Jake was upsetting her and scaring her in the same moment. She lifted a hand and points at him.
Edward isn't here! We don't have to worry about that. No Jake, you are not leaving me again. I can't deal with you going again, it'll kill me. Please promise me you won't go. You say you love me. Then simply stay. This is your home. You belong here. I want you to stay!
Man, was she emotional again! This was too much for her to take in. Seeing Jake and feeling as if she was only going to lose him again. She might be seeming greedy, but she wasn't wanting to have Jake go no where, and that included even if Edward one day returned. She brought her hands down to her side and lifted one to wipe her face in shaky motions.
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 19, 2011 0:18:20 GMT 10
He looked up to her as she stood in front of him. He could see the fear in her eyes before the tears came again. He hadn't seen her so emotional before. He had always known Bella to be emotion, but not like this. It worried him greatly.
He looked to her with hurt eyes, seeing how much he had hurt her just by running off. He should have known better than to think that she was better off without him in her life. The farther they were from each other, the more they hurt for each other. He had known that rule of imprinting ever since Sam mentioned it, but he didn't think it would be possible for her to hurt, to want him, when she already had and loved Edward.
Again, Jacob got to the point of not know what to say to her. He had ever not known what to say so much and so often in one day. It was typical. Bella was the only one who could make him act differently. He wanted to promise her that he wouldn't leave. But, he hadn't promised it to Rachel, even when she begged him . . . but this was a little different. Bella meant the world to him, more than his own life. But he didn't want to make a promise that he couldn't keep.
He finally stood and went over to her side, re-wrapping his arms around her. With his index finger, he wiped her tears away. "Bella, I've already told you I'm here only for a couple of days, but I am coming back after that. I need to finish things off in New York. I gotta work things out with my apartment and everything. I've gotta go back sooner or later and deal with it. Skyla doesn't even know I'm here. She'll be wondering where I am if I don't go back soon. She really freaked out when she found out that I was leaving.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 19, 2011 1:45:36 GMT 10
Bella shook her head at Jake. She knew better. Something was off-key. She knew if he left to go back to New York, he wasn't so willingly going to come back. Not after knowing she still loved the both of them. Even if his words were true and it was just to go and finalize things back there, she just couldn't feel it within her heart.
She let him hold her a moment longer and then turned in his arms to look up into his eyes. " You promised me you'd not leave me. You broke that once. You came back. You ..me, we are here.. together. Don't go back. Don't go. You won't come back. I know it." She swallowed and gasped out. She found it hard to trust when every guy she met as of the past years were making promises and lying to her and breaking them. Couldn't Jake see this in her gaze as she stared up to him? She tried to think of a way to get him to see it from her point, but it only got her more flustered and more tears came out.
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 19, 2011 2:53:50 GMT 10
He sighed, knowing her words were true. " That's why I don't want to make anymore promises I can't keep Bella.
[/color]" He looked down to her when she moved in his arms. She looked him deep within his eyes. He couldn't help but feel lost within her chocolate eyes he loved so much while hearing her heart beating against his body. Just the sound of her heart beating felt so incredible to him, relaxing even. It soothed him to hear it. He knew, no matter what he would say, she wouldn't believe him. He sighed again, looking away from her. He could understand what she was saying and why she was saying it. He looked back to her when he noticed she was crying again. It hurt him physically to see her hurting and scared because of what he had done. He knew that she didn't feel like she could trust him with his words anymore, and he couldn't blame her. " If you don't believe I'll come back, then . . . come back to New York with me. Then I'll have to come back. Won't I?[/color]" Bella,[/color]" he murmured almost silently, his hand ran down the side of her face softly and slowly while staring into her eyes, wiping the tears away from her warm cheeks. " Don't cry,[/color]" he whispered, leaning closer down to her, finding her hand. " I hate seeing you cry. It hurts me Bella, to see you like this.[/color]" his hand ran down the side of her face again. He suddenly got an urge he couldn't control nor stop. It was like his own body took control over his mind. His lips touched hers in a heated kiss. He pulled away quickly, his eyes wide in shock of what he had just did. He didn't understand how it had happened. " Bella . . . I - I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me.[/color]" his tone was quick and breathless from shock of what had happened. He stepped back away from her. Not believing how he had just done that without realizing what he was doing.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 19, 2011 5:41:54 GMT 10
Bella could understand Jake not wanting to make anymore promises to her. That was what had her so scared. It was the fact, he was not making these promises. After a long moment of silence, all she had left in her was to sigh. When he finally offered to take her with him, her eyes widen. Did he mean that? Would he really take her with him, in means of showing her that he would definitely come back? " Alright, but I would have to talk to Charlie and it would have to be in a couple of days. I never been to New York, what is it like? So she got momentarily sidetracked, that sometimes happened with Bella.
She had just taken a deep breath and was about to bring her hands up to wipe at her face a last time when she was kissed. She hadn't even expected that from Jake but she didn't shy from it. She, for that brief moment of time, had leaned into his kiss. When it broke, and he started saying sorry, she shook her head a bunch of times while licking her lips. She could taste him upon them and wanted to savor them. " No, no don't be sorry Jake. I didn't mind you kissing me." Her brown orbs held to his.
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 19, 2011 6:50:21 GMT 10
Somehow, Jacob's hadn't heard any of Bella's words she spoke of before he kissed her. He still didn't know what had come over him to make him kiss her and lose focus of what she had been saying. But he was shocked by her words. He had been ready to duck from one of her punches like she had last time he kissed her without asking and broke her hand. He stayed silently for a moment with hearing her say that it was okay. He could feel the slight redness in his cheeks while watching her lick her lips. He tried to hide the cocky smile from appearing on his face, but he was sure that Bella, of all people would notice him fighting it. He couldn't resist to lick his own at that point.
Her chocolate brown eyes held his gaze with great intensity. He bit his lower lip, staring down at her still in his arms. His hand left hers and softly was placed just under her jaw as was like the other. He couldn't help but want to feel her lips against his own again. The last kiss was much too quick for his liking. His lips brushed against hers softly and gently as he leaned against her and deepen their kiss, the opposite to how he had kissed her on top of the mountain years back.
He didn't care about been rough, or passionate like he had been back then. He just wanted to be there, with her, feeling and tasting her, like she was his own.
He pushed her back a few steps back against the side of his shed's door without breaking their connection. He couldn't help but lick her lower lip with temptation. It felt like forever before he pulled away, but at the same time, it didn't feel long enough. He could kiss her all day and night. His gaze still held hers as he suddenly realized what she had said before he had kissed her.
His eyes turned to shock when he realized that she had agreed that she would go back to New York with him. He couldn't believe it! He couldn't wait to show her around and spend time with her! In Jacob's eyes, it was what they should have been doing the whole time. Spending time with each other and having fun with no end in sight. " And to answer you, New York is many things, you could say. Crazy, nuts, hectic, extream, beautiful, unpredictable . . . pretty much everything, apart from peaceful you could say, unless your in Central Park.
[/color]" He smiled down at her sweetly. Feeling like he hadn't ever felt before.
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Post by Bella Swan on May 31, 2011 21:47:39 GMT 10
Bella enjoyed that next kiss just as much as she had the last, if not even more. She held on tightly to Jacob until the kiss had ended and when it did, she just looked into his eyes. He spoke of New York and how things were there. She gave him a soft nod. In many ways, she expected New York to be like Phoenix. She enjoyed big cities and seeing the sights it had to offer. Only thing was, normally her "accidents" got someone annoyed to some degree. She wasn't the safest thing on her feet.
" I will have to think of some good reason to explain to Charlie why I want to go with you Jake. Will you come over tomorrow and sit with me while I ask him?"
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Post by ✯Jacob Black✯ on May 31, 2011 22:03:20 GMT 10
He smiled sweetly upon her. Looking into her eyes. He loved the feeling of her lips upon his own. It just felt so right, so special. Like . . . she was made for him. It meant everything to him these moments. He savoured moments such as this.
Hearing her question if he would come over tomorrow when she asked Charlie about New York made him bite his lower lip nervously. He glanced down at the ground near the shed, thinking of what the worst could happen. It was Charlie for crying out loud . . . but still, being around someone with a job such as Charlie's wasn't such a great idea with what things had happened recently in his life. He also knew that he would have tough questions to answer as well. He hesitantly answered her after a long silent moment. "Sure,
[/color]" he smiled halfheartedly, hoping that she hadn't noticed how different he was acting, but knew she would. She just knew him all too well. He quickly thought of something to say to try and cover up his hesitance. " For some reason, I don't get the feeling Charlie likes New York too much,[/color]" he chuckled.
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